Forgiveness

how do i begin to say, all that needs to be said where do i even start to explain from where all this led. i read and write and read some more wishing things were different from my very core. i am not who i was, nor who i want to be forever changed is the true essence of me. lying down beside me, or a million miles away when faced with this dilemma, i begged for her to stay. truth confronts the omission and demands a fight seeing everything crumble with a bright and painful light living in my life today i see where i went wrong trying to forgive myself with a vengeance that is strong