For Now

For Now I am for now doing what I can Nobody knowing about my real plan.... For now I will try to survive.... Even if nothing inside of me is alive.... I just keep going and pretend.... Finally seeing my pain coming to an end.... Please don’t cry for me.... I am better off you will see.... Don’t ever doubt I love you all.... My mind and soul can’t handle another fall.... For now I go through life feeling numb.... I may be slow at times but I’m not dumb.... I know who really loved me with no conditions.... And who pulled me through hard situations.... I want to really thank all of you.... And say sorry for now what I must do.... Sept. 5,2008 Bettie Avery