Flawless Hearts Intertwined With Sick Thoughts

There are many things that I'd like to say to you, but I just dont know how. Left unspoken just to lie to myself, cause what I want out of you just inst real. my heart is anothers, so wrong, I know. I tried to pretend, I tried to lie to myself, I tried to ruin what little of you that I had, but the feeling just became a daily routine....just another sad corner of my life...it's not where you belong. It's not good for me to look you in the eye, it just reminds me of how well you can see through me. Every thorn that covers my heart, you know of...all but the one that sticks in my side...the thought of you. I always find the tragedy in what seems so perfect, but not this time, its impossible to see a flaw in you. I told you, so long ago, you were my dream, my perfection...it menat so little to you...it meant the entire world to me. But thats how it is always goes, doesnt it? You only let people know what you want them to...this isn't a guessing game...but it feels like its rapidly turning into one. If it meant your happiness over mine, I'd forever give you up as my guilty pleasure. Not a single thought more of what could be would surface in my mind. Not another sinful thought of holding you and calling you my own would surround my heart when it's too dark to see. Your Flawless heart wasnt meant to be intertwined with mine...