Fear of Death

Where is my heart, right or left?
It's right to say left , as it has to be.
I think of it only when a pain lingers
Dread of an attack making it still
Perhaps it's none than an air trap. 

Whatever, a cold sweat sweeps us
My 50s is on the exit , 60 at door step
Doc says I should be very careful,
Since my heart is older than me.
As age count started just by birth. 

But how to care, he has a magic list.
Less smoke, less liquor , less fat
More sweat, more water,more love.
And life is what I will gain, perhaps.
None knows if the chill is but nearby.

Well, death is inevitable and real
Will it come when self is ready?
When am I ready ? Should I know?
Is Today be my day of reckoning 
If tomorrow should I be recalled.

Oh my! I dread the motionless me
I dread the weeps of my dear ones
I dread death, as 'am taphophobic 
I dread death , as 'am acrophobic.
As not sure to the depth or height I go.

But I love to go to that inner world
Of that mystery ,we call after life.
To know how is the world beyond 
To prove those masters of time
Right or wrong in what they taught 
But for that should I need to die?

The shudder, listening to death's steps
Approaching , marking lives at random 
Is more painful than of death itself.
If fear grips,final one is a second death.
Copyright © | Year Posted 2019

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Lamoureux Avatar
November 29, 2019 at 8:38 AM
I have enjoyed reading your writing and have added you to poets I follow. I appreciate thought provoking poetry. Do drop by and visit.
Brown Avatar
November 22, 2019 at 12:35 PM
Beautiful Johnson. I really like the rhythm of it.
Callus Avatar
November 21, 2019 at 2:50 PM
I can so relate to your poem, Vdev. We do our best to live as long as possible, but we know that eventually death shall come, and we will be powerless to say no. Do I fear death? I used to, but having mellowed with old age, I look at it with understanding and acceptance. Regards // paul
Vdev Avatar
November 21, 2019 at 7:08 PM
Thanks a million for your comment. It matters a lot to me.
Na Avatar
November 21, 2019 at 2:11 AM
Hi Vdev. well written my friend. I wonder how many in the world are afraid of dying. I am part of the ones that is not afraid. Thanks for sharing this
Vdev Avatar
November 21, 2019 at 2:37 AM
Thanks for the kind words and reading my poem.
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