Father Is Gone Again

Sixteen years ago he left me,
I was only two years old.
He chose a life of crime instead,
At least that's what I've been told.

He never tried to come back,
No gifts, cards, or calls.
While he was drinking and running from cops,
I was learning how to crawl.

He missed my first steps,
Missed my recitals and my first play,
He missed all my brothers football games,
I wanted to know why he didn't stay.

I thought it was my fault,
I turned toward men and drugs.
I was only eleven years old
Meeting up with plugs.

I replaced him with pills and powder,
Their love in place of his.
For seven years, I road the high,
Until the overdose had proved what this life really is.

Mom forced me to detox,
To rid my body of the addiction.
The drugs, the drinks, and the wanting to know
How my father could cause such an affliction.

I've been sober for a year now,
Sober from drugs and my need for him.
And though it took some time, I know,
The truth is rather grim.

He’s never coming home again,
He chose the life he leads.
And from him and all of my hurdles,
I have finally been freed.

Copyright © | Year Posted 2022



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Date: 9/17/2022 10:27:00 AM
O, Kierra, you've run us through a range of emotions here! Sorrow, regret, escape, freedom. I hope there is joy for you as well. Our earthly fathers, imperfect as they are, let us down. And we too let down the ones around us. It is the way of things under the sun. I'm so glad you have broken free of addiction - It takes some time, being free, to put things into perspective. I will be 17 years free in 2 days. And life isn't perfect when you're sober, but you can take it head-on, eyes wide open.
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Michael Tor
Date: 10/23/2022 5:38:00 PM
Jeff thank you for reaching out to Kierra. Your comment is heartfelt and wonderful to read. You are an overcomer, God bless you for sharing and much success in all you do...
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Jeff Kyser
Date: 9/17/2022 10:29:00 AM
And I hope you will discover that you have a heavenly Father who loves you, even in your pain.
Date: 9/16/2022 11:31:00 AM
That is all history behind you and simply proves you never did need him, so get on with your life and make your future what you want it to be! It is easier than you think! Aloha!
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Date: 9/16/2022 3:56:00 AM
Kierra when I read this the tears flowed down my face. Your words were so touching and heartfelt. Only a person with a tender heart for her fathers love can relate. I am so sorry to hear of your father leaving you and causing pain. I want to share with you something special in all this pain in you, and resolve to have your father back in your life. Your other father Jesus Loves you, more than you can imagine. He will always be with you. Turn to him he knocks at your heart right now let him in...
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Michael Tor
Date: 9/16/2022 4:55:00 AM
I sent you Soup Mail...
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Michael Tor
Date: 9/16/2022 4:05:00 AM
He will be your comforter and hold you in his loving spirit until your dad comes back. Pray to to Jesus ask him to heal all your pain and change your dad. Jesus will bring him back to you, He loves you and he knows your every pain you felt. God bless you Kierra know that we are here for you always. A soupmail away. This is a favorite for me, for you are the daughter that every dad wishes for. You see I have reached out to my daughter you have for your dad and she has distance herself from me. That is how I know the pain you are feeling. I am so sorry for you heartache. I carry this heartache also and wish someday to reunite and bring her back in my arms again. This a favorite Poem that is my favorite of all the poetry I have read on this site. Congratulations in writing this Memorable heartfelt Piece. God bless you again...
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