Failure of Duty

I am trying to remember the last time we were happy, Every time I think I have it nailed down I come up empty. Each moment I think I can get past it with some word or fight, You show the reasons I fell in love, with kindness and insight. The torture of finding a path through this labyrinth of pain, Is knowing that all was preventable without even a stain. Truth is the foundation of a well built home, I couldn’t straighten it out with an iron and fine toothed comb. I don’t know how long I will last, As the one who let you down in the past. My mind wishes only happiness for you and your life, But my heart still sees you as my darling wife. My words are slowing and my mind is growing weary, For the past few months my eyes have never been more teary. These words are not for you to hear or be reading, But for me as I try and stop my soul from bleeding. As you move on in strength and beauty, My heart and mind crumble from my failed duty.