Evil in me

How much can i be vicious? How much can i be worst ? If i stop forgetting and start holding.. The devil whispers in my ear  Heart started to sink . Lets just forgive  Then here comes villainous voices From my heart ..... Which strangles me and says.. "I wanna kiss his face  With my broken heart. I wanna paint his face  With all my scars. I wanna get him back  To give him heart attack I wanna feel his death  From all his heart . I know i m being dramatic But that's only left to imagine. I just think what he owes? Should i tell his mom ? That his son suckkkss What he does could proudly hurts." Then i just swallowed the evil  But heart hurts deep . He kept knocking . Knocking on my valves. Till it gives me heart attack.