Emotionally Exhausted

Dont want to pour my heart out on this sheet The only thing you seem to want from me Is between my legs thighs and cheeks Lips mouth and esophagus And to you thats all I am worth Why shed tears for one that doesnt have the slightest emotion to gather or muster up a or a care I Hate the fact that I love you I Hate how affectionate I am towards you I Hate that you neglect my emotions Set aside my feelings and remain in the state of oblivion to what it means to actually be there for me Abuse my vulnerabilities Cast aside my insecurities Laugh at my tears My Heart I still give and you act as if its not even there I prayed to God tonight to please erase the feelings I have for you Truly and Sincerely, I hope he does that for me I Appreciate all of his blessings Dont want to ask for too much But this one...I really need