Doublethink Belief

This Life Who would I be if I didn't believe in my Christianity? This is my journey unplanned in the birthing of every child, every woman, every man. Someone else, would be a dark, lost soul searching for something that can make them whole. Is there a God in Heaven above who sees Christian, Islamic, Hebrew, Buddhist, Hinduist refugee like me? I only know, I sense a feeling I can't dismiss in the doubts that often persist questioning a God's creative flow in the how and why life exists this within me I sense and know. My Next Life There is a life that may yet be might open my eyes to what I need to see, the lessons experienced and learned at a cost, love gained and lost recovered and treasured in the coins random toss, what will that life be when all is shared equally is there nothing left of you and me? I would start again, the saint, the sinner man unawares of the prior life, I spent within a life span still, I would find a way to believe and pray locked in life's perpetual dance foolishly making the same mistakes of chance. My Breath Flows in this Here and Now This is a heartbeat fast and slow that I hear yours and mine, alive, living loud and clear, nothing makes us more of who we are then past memories with all its scars, I'm sorry for all I did, all I may have said glad that time allows us to still look ahead, I do believe God exists God judges not love gives me the courage to not resist, perhaps in time, with faith and understanding I will find my way, my purpose to accept a creator's planning. For Unseeking Seeker's contest Doublethink beliefs 12/07/2021