Don'T Look At Me

Yes, I’m scared of you, But not because I don’t want you. Because I do! Because I fall fast. Because I have an edgy uneven past. Because if I open up you may run away. I feel it every time you look at me that way. Sometimes I don’t know the things to say. I’ve never been close to anyone. I wish to tell you how it begun. My dad hurt me when I was six. Its nothing you can fix. Now he’s serving a child molesters plea. The closet was the only place for me. I couldn’t save my brother when fate turned the other way. The nights I pray But it wasn’t god’s way. The world is hard, as I want to be, But when you look at me its not me you see. Don’t look at me! I leave! I’m make believe!