Distress

I may not be The highest mountain The deepest ocean The most desired emotion Or the youthful fountain But I expected more than this decree I see you walk off from me Ignore me completely As soon as you no longer need me As you go out and earn your degree Carry on with your life Live as somebody else's wife Leaving me in this eternal strife But I expected more than this decree I expected better than this Yes, I know, yes I've been told My face is not like Aphrodite My strength is not like Zeus so mighty My confidence not like Prometheus My status no where near the God of all But I expected more than this decree And as I see the others enjoy their lives Carry on with their struggles Overcome their quarrels Love, and live happily, sadly, angrily and passionately My state remains minimal and static Nothing to make me ecstatic Not since you left me traumatic I can at least say I am charismatic Fanatically dramatically in touch and automatically Systematically intelligent As the power of the cosmos dwells within me And I have been given a gift that none others can see I had hoped that you saw this gift visually But after you've done away with what you pleased Thank you, good bye, and run off with another hairless monkey and be forever breezed From my life, death, solitude and resurrection I was once told to find a quality A melody Something within me An aspect that sets me apart from all that is worldly If one doesn't see it, move on a tread lightly Happily and sustainably And if one sees that quality Then it is she who you truly seek Grasp that opportunity and never let it go I thought that opportunity was you, just so you know So here I am, wallowing away Swallowing and following as the seasons continuously change Cycle, going round and round Wrinkles grow on my face Nothing moves in time and space Until we meet our indifferent graves Will I forever be trapped this way? In a state of darkness, with no companion to guide or hold me A state where my friends are an illusion trying to misguide In an eternal facade of an empathy Or will I find ecstasy Someone who sees the ocean of light inside me One who understands my ability And constantly thinks and watches for me Why can't it be? But I guess I am expecting more than what's realistic Human desires are guided only by biology, not reason Reason is a facade and rationality is a fraud Ironic, that love is the only emotion that can shake the ground beneath us And yet, I regress, it is guided only by distress