Dirk

Zig-zag-- Am I a *** Or just another *****? A deer caught in the head-lines: Afraid of the stigma of being labeled "gay." I've tried to sift through all the lies Now it's time to open my eyes; It's time for me to be true to myself, I am a man & nothing more. A man with many demons & a thousand & 1 insecurities; Trying to rationalize what I can't deny. Flip-flopping back & forth-- Am I or aren't I? Feeling so confused-- My mind is clouded with thoughts abated. I'm tired of having to defend; I'm weary of the prospect of being typecast: I am a man & nothing more. Tick-tock-- I am the abbreviation Of 20 something consternation. Headphones on Always having to be on; Pretending to be a man sure of himself: Obstinately performing in this merry-go-round of lies. Tightrope walking over a lake of fire The warning is clear, the prospect is dire-- I am a ***, I am a ***** I am a deer caught in the dead-lights Of living a life half-alive.