Dilemmas

I did something, I thought of something. Some processes were set in motion. Now I’m wondering. Now I’m thinking. I consider an impact of Heaven. What was made by chance, and what was not? Some of my reactions were instinctive, Some of my actions had to come from God, Some work was in vain, some was constructive. What mechanisms were activated? What power does move the unseen strings? Am I a free being or a puppet? I am full of dilemmas and questions...