Destruction Within

I had masked the pain underneath
But now it has build up
And I lay awake and grind my teeth

You can only take so many hits before you get knocked out
On the in I want to scream and shout
I now know what this is all about

I can not give it time
And that is my crime
My situation, sublime

I am too depressed for social interaction
Nothing is going right
As I close my eyes tonight
I realize that tomorrow
I will let go
Everything and everyone I know

Not a thing can lift me up
My cup of hope is long gone
And I can never move on

This is my final plight
As I attempt to fall asleep tonight

That every girl that tore me down
Is now a scar upon my heart
And it's about time for it to fall apart

There's nothing I can do
To bring any of them back
Patience is something I lack

I can not wait any longer
This is the end
You can not mend
What is already broken
And every word that was spoken
Is now the last
For in my past
My dreams and passions were destroyed
And I am very annoyed

So now that there is nothing to hope for
And I can not even dream at night
I am forever in fright

My life now a shell
Because on the in I am in some hell
And after every disruption
I grow closer to destruction

I can never let go
It is time to reap what I sow
Copyright © | Year Posted 2009


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Date: 11/4/2009 3:59:00 AM
Awesome writing Matthan. I enjoyed reading it. May you have a wonderful day filled with love and inspiration. Love, Carol
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Date: 11/3/2009 9:21:00 AM
Matthan...im crying as im reading this...this sorrowfilled goodbye note. a note of death and pain. pain which i too have experianced. if i were to pick the lines so beautiful to me, i would be repeating the whole thing...but dear...oh dear...do not go away, do not try to join the angels ranks...not yet...when dreams and passions are destroyed what more can you do but search a new dream. reap what you sow....and be reborn without your pain. start over again...and live xo forever Raiin
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