Evelyn James Poet Rhyme

Depression

The fear is like a heavy weight
Pressing on my chest
And while I know it isn't real
It never seems to rest
What is this fear I wonder
Am I scared of death and 
dying?
Or am I scared of something 
else,
As to be dead I've been trying
So I don't think I'm scared of 
death
But my patience is wearing 
thin
What is this thing that grips 
me tight
And shakes me till I'm grim?
It turns my insides bitter
Like the dirtiest piece of cud
It changes how I see the 
world
As though I see through mud
Death is in my every thought
What a pleasant way to live
And even though I'm scared of 
something
I have no name to give
So this anonymous assailant
Continues to reside
In my mind and in my life
I genuinely have tried
But ridding myself of this evil
Is more difficult than it seems
Because I don't know what to 
fight
Or how to equip my teams
They battle valiantly everyday
For the ownership of me
And I don't think I'll be normal
Until it leaves me be.

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Gordon Mcconnell June 1, 2014 at 10:49 AM real fine piece straight from the heart, so well penned. well done, look forward to read more of your writing, have blessed day, Gordon

Dr.Ram Mehta May 28, 2014 at 6:24 AM Interesting and creative. Congrats on your poem being featured this week,

Jan Allison March 26, 2014 at 7:13 PM HI Beth ive also written on this subject but mine wasn't written from my own real life experience. A fabulous poem about a subject which affects so many lives. Hugs Jan xx

Anne-Lise Andresen March 24, 2014 at 5:51 AM - Warm welcome to PoetrySoup,Beth :) - I choose your first moving written poem - Nice to meet you :) - Hope you will be satisfied with our "soup family" - we are many .. but has plenty of room for you too- PoetrySoup Rule1: Be kind and keep PoetrySoup a haven. PoetrySoup is a drama free zone(Comment on the poetry of others and they will comment on yours.) Thank you posted your words and thoughts here, I want to come back to read more another day. - oxox // Anne-Lise :)

Mandy Tams The Golden Girl March 23, 2014 at 8:42 AM kep your pecker up girl you can do it xx

Poet Destroyer A March 23, 2014 at 12:22 AM I've been down this road, death makes it seem easy.. Your first poem, covers a subject many of us still deal with, Beth, , A nice warm WELCOME to poetry soup. I hope you enjoy the community, as I did when I first join, March 2010. You'll find many friendly poets, who are ready to support and offer positive feedback. I want to be the first to invite you on over, to my contest and poetry page. I OFFER MY CONTEST, in hopes it inspires you to write another poem. I'm looking forward to following you and your poetry ha-ha a special pair:) here's the link to the contest page. http://www.poetrysoup.com/poetry_contests/ <---~Take Care!! From: your new poet friend @-> LINDA <-@

Skat A March 22, 2014 at 11:42 PM Beth, depression's one heavy and hard battle. How it takes complete control over one... Great poem..., Stopping by with a nice, sweet Welcome to Poetry Soup. I will find much delight, in reading and in time become familiar with your way of writing. But, for the mean time, I will greet you with the same smile, other poets passed when I first join the soup 4 years ago. I wish you the best when it comes to your poems. I hope you get to meet all the nice poets around here. Starting with me. SKAT :-) Please drop a hello and tell me a little about yourself if you like. I would like to be your newest poetry soup "FRIEND". Hugs* SKAT