Depersonalization

Inside four walls I currently reside
Within this house I continue to hide

Hurt lurks beyond these bounds
Crumbs of ash in piles and mounds

A cold fire burns deep
This amber glow will keep

Fearless as I may be
This outside world I can not see

For pain has been my enemy
The outside reminds me of the memory

For many nights I toss and turn where I lay
This memory hurts in a transparent way

Sunshine is but a remembrance of youth
I hide away like a midnight sleuth

Dimmer and dimmer is this light
It only gets brighter during the night

Where one can think without sound
And think what is really all around

Out of this world I feel
Is everything I touch real?

I see but am still blind
I am out of body, but still in mind
Copyright © | Year Posted 2010

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October 15, 2010 at 11:54 AM
MATTHAN, Congratulations! On having your poem featured this week. A poem well deserved, keep the fascinating poetry coming" Nathan D."
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October 15, 2010 at 9:49 AM
GOOD MORNING! MATTHAN, CoNGRATULATIoNS ON HAVING YOUR POEM FEATURED THIS WEEK*luv~SKAT"
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October 14, 2010 at 9:58 AM
there were so many amazing lines in this piece you have strung together for us, it was amazing and well deserved feature, congratulations. i really enjoyed reading this! keep that pen flowing for us! --Madison
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October 14, 2010 at 8:21 AM
Yes! I know the feeling. If you are so inclined, see my "Neat and Tidy." Congrats on the selection. Dave
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October 13, 2010 at 1:27 PM
Matthan, hello & Congratulations! On your awesome & well done poem being featured this week: ) have a nice one,..p.d. "
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October 12, 2010 at 6:45 AM
Congrats on having your poem being featured on the Poetry Soup home page this week. Please keep your creative caps on, let your poetry pen keep painting your poetry pads with colors of creativity. Thanks for sharing this with us and have a wonderful week ahead. Love always, Adeleke
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October 11, 2010 at 5:55 AM
Congratulations on your wonderful poetry being featured this week Matthan what a great way to have it seen. Love, Carol
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March 25, 2010 at 11:55 AM
I am so happy to see your poem amongst the ones I am reading today Matthan. Thank you for sharing. Wishing you have a wonderful day filled with inspiration and hope for a better tomorrow. Love, Carol
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March 25, 2010 at 8:09 AM
Our senseds do seem to peak at night, Matthew. Things just seem to make more sense then and, for me, it is a time when I appreciate poetry even more. Compelling poem! Love, Carolyn
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March 25, 2010 at 5:41 AM
Agree with Amy - This is an awesome write Mathan - It has lots of layers and hidden depth in its words - Thanks so much for sharing today -:)
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March 24, 2010 at 11:31 PM
Awesome write! Really liked it! Very intricate and profound.
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