Depersonalization

Inside four walls I currently reside Within this house I continue to hide Hurt lurks beyond these bounds Crumbs of ash in piles and mounds A cold fire burns deep This amber glow will keep Fearless as I may be This outside world I can not see For pain has been my enemy The outside reminds me of the memory For many nights I toss and turn where I lay This memory hurts in a transparent way Sunshine is but a remembrance of youth I hide away like a midnight sleuth Dimmer and dimmer is this light It only gets brighter during the night Where one can think without sound And think what is really all around Out of this world I feel Is everything I touch real? I see but am still blind I am out of body, but still in mind