Delusions of Peace

Scream louder in the brain,
Work hard to deaden the pain...
The gnawing at the roots...
The scratching noises take me to the lost sanity that will never gain victory again,
Sanity? Victory? I scoff...
In the mirror upon the wall, up the stairs down the hall, 
Images past I see... fading, fading... slowly...
I see a man I never knew. Deep inside are cries of muffled sorrow.
The hurts of being lost with out direction,
Hope... again I scoff...
The darkness filtered from disgust and disbelief is no longer diluted with dust particles of light,
But the density is pure...
Pure darkness that not only reaches deep into the heart but engulfs the madness,
The madness that I call myself.
There has never been peace in this madness, 
Only delusions of happiness that seem to twist any reality into unrecognizable fate.
A direction that spirals with the darkness and has the funnelled power of a twister,
Bringing destruction in its path...
Yet, in the midst of the delusion a small spark of curiosity catches the eye,
And for a brief moment...
As in the eye of the storm...

By Pernell Rodocker

Copyright © | Year Posted 2009



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Date: 5/14/2014 8:27:00 AM
This hit me like a ton of bricks! A time in my life when I had such great despair and thank God that time has vanished into a long past and learned memory! Here goes the first dark poem into my favorites! A truly brilliant write my friend!Robert
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Date: 5/13/2014 8:55:00 PM
PERNELL... Nice seeing your poem featured on the poetry soups home page. Always & Forever ~LINDA~
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Date: 5/13/2014 6:21:00 AM
Congratulations on your poem being featured this week, Pernell
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Pernell Rodocker
Date: 5/13/2014 6:14:00 PM
Many thanks... PR
Date: 5/6/2014 10:43:00 PM
Now this one stopped me dead in my tracks like I just ran into a pack of wolves. It's dark and it grates, making me feel like I've been taken to a dreamscape and was dragged back and forth images upon images of unavoidable truths. It's excellent!
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