Darkness

There comes a time when we must let go. To all the things that we once held so close. Not knowing which way the wind will blow. It will bring us up or it will knock us down. And leave us all alone. In the dark and with an empty soul. And we can not get this feeling out. The pain will just keep bringing us down. Well I guess I should say me instead of us. For I have givin up on all hope. And I do not care anymore. Because I do not love anymore. My heart is no longer an open door. I do nott have anymore love to give away. My whole damn life is blowing away. I cant think straight and my mind always goes blank. Not knowing what to think or say. Or even be happy on a sunny day. Cuase I rather it be dark and hear the rain. I want to hear the thunder around me. I want to feel it when the lighting hits the ground. I want to scream out into the darkness and see what comes after me. I want to rip my heart right out and just sit on the ground. I need to pray for a way out. But I have a monster in me right now. And it wont come out. Eating my heart away. Telling me its time to end this today. And I am fighting for life. And every breath I take. Because the monster doesnt want me to live. It wants to take me away. And is killing me everyday.