Custody Blues in C minor

"Custody Blues in C Minor" (Disaster and Love as a Single Father) One coffee mug I purchased had a cracked lip, A plastic spoon, and half a bed, And the echo of her "I’m done with you" Still knocking around in my head. She gave me a car seat to keep. And a drawer full of onesies and grief, And now I rock my girl to sleep to my own disbelief's sound. She had dreams about the chandelier, I had a cough and a nightlight. I boil noodles with the baby in my arms, Tryin’ not to piss God off. Sometimes I wish for bourbon, Sometimes I wish for death— But then them little baby snores Take the fire outta my breath. There’s love in frozen waffles, And hope in diaper pails— Yeah, I lost the war of roses, But I’m still standing in the hail. Ain’t no lullaby for heartbreak, Ain’t no handbook for regret— But I’ll raise this girl on gravel roads And pay off love’s damn debt.