Crawling Towards Love

Do I understand what love is? Have I fallen into it before? Convincing myself I knew not Possibly I tried in my youth Now younger days have passed me by Still I know nothing of love Walking towards it At a mere crawl I write pages of it But all turn to a scrawl Giving of myself, selfless to be Can I love another past the faults Like I tried to love you all Wanting to be open inside Barren heart fill up with joys Oh, how I try, then I feel to die Will I ever feel love? Attempt to make you smile Do I really want love? Or just the idea if it?