Crashing World

Why was I so stupid as to believe, That I was deserving of your love, Or anyone’s? Sanity is what I cleave, As my world crashes all around me. How I yearn to lament and wail, But the world does not stop Just because I am in Hell. Though tears do come and go. I find myself barely holding on, I can barely even breathe, I try to see the life we set upon, And I find that I cannot see I just want to curl up and die, As this pain is so surreal. I can’t believe I fell for the lie That I am worthy of love. I gave you so much more of me Than I ever gave anyone. I just can’t fathom how this can be Happening all over again. Only a few hours since a kiss Was given, and even now It is something I truly miss. It was a promise of your love. I know things look extremely bleak I know I can forgive you eventually, That is if forgiveness is what you seek, And work on fixing us, I am doing the best I can Not to completely fall apart. However, my emotional span Is moving all over the place.