Control

I've found myself screaming in the night I'm always crying out your name Then when I wake in the dawns early light My life here is yet still the same It's an endless fight With these feelings I cannot tame Yes those moments, memories, and all the fantasies you are so deep inside my soul From every waking hour to the dark of night over me they have control I'm the one here with whom is left emotionally so helpless and hopeless All this love I still feel for you in my heart is a door that never closes I can't get out I'm in this way to far and so extremely deep Yet from my eyes tears very rarely seem to seep Even through all my pain that I still feel constantly from the tears I'm somewhat numb I'm getting stronger because of it open up your eyes wide and see who I've become But at the same time I'm still week because I get lost inside my own mind The memories steal from me sweet time The sweet and precious time with you that should be mine Those moments they won't let me let you go So therefore over me you are the only one who will ever have complete and total control And yet still that is what you seem to continue to fight Spread your wings and let your heart take flight You can't stop these feelings for me Anymore than I can stop mine for you You very much know it's true For if we could it would've already been done Instead we are left standing in love without a gun It's been said true love is suicide Leaves ones heart and soul with nowhere to hide I'm the one you can't let go I'm the one who is deep down inside your heart and soul Over you I'm the one who has control ...now it's time for you to see it