Confused

Is it love or is it hate?... these feelings makes it difficult to think straight.... everything is upside down... in painful thoughts every minute I drown... Why am I soo confused?.. when I'm the one who refused... did I make a wrong turn?.. this doubt makes my heart burn... Are these feelings permanent? I worry.... I cannot make any changes...I'm sorry... everyday I try my best... GOD please help me with the rest...