Colors Everywhere

It’s so much easier to just live in memory. Easy to taste chocolate cake. To see who loved me and ate from my kitchen. A lovely day with friends is so very far away now… I try with my hand but can’t touch it. Even in dreams I don’t have the pleasure. It doesn’t feel good to write about the reasons. They aren’t tangible anyway. As the world spins by whole and beautiful… I watch as it goes round and round. and wonder… Could it stop for a moment and I’ll get on? Sounds easy enough. But so much separates me from this. Out in a field, I see the distance. Everything there says “go”. Just get on. Hesitation, then, I’ve missed my chance. Am I wearing the wrong clothes? I soften with the evening time and melt into everything. Let me say a prayer which brings me some kind of understanding… Everything will come easy. Sparkly and colors everywhere.