Christian God

I feel terrible for not believing in the one you call "Christian God". I go by church after church, feeling worse and worse. I did believe, and went to church every Sunday. Until l realized that their is so many things wrong with this "God". We're all made in his vision, yet none of us are equal to him. We're supposed to love all, but blacks are thought of as wrong in the bible. Woman and Men aren't equal and woman shouldn't speak in church,but we've been fighting for "Womans Rights" fo a long time. The bible says he's our God, but it says we have no superior. We're taught in school to except peoples differences, but in the bible there's so many things that can damn us to hell. You have to Christian, you can't be gay/lesbian, you cant gamble. How can someone look to this "God" as a master, a leader, a great man?? I find it nauseating how much his bible discriminates.