Catatonic

staring at the wall at nothing in the air staring without a word at thoughts barely there staring while my stomach swallows up my heart staring so I don't move and startle up my thoughts staring to protect myself from your razor words clawing up my rib cage burning in my nerves staring to slow the rat race of conversations on the loose staring at mindless accusations tightening up my noose staring to save my body from shaking fits non stop staring so that time goes by without a second thought staring so I don't feel any stabbing pain for you staring so I remember what you put me through staring so everyone around me assumes that I'm ok staring so I don't look like another wreck today staring so I don't analyse how complex "simple" can be staring so I don't forget who I am to me.