Can'T Win Them All

The day goes on and I encounter more Feelings, a hurricane of emotions Quaking through this vessel Threatening to toss over in the winds Capsize in a sea of invalids Negating my validity, testing my fidelity But truthfully I can not always put a smile on your face Nor can you put one on mine Feel free to try Suspicions lure as more trips are taken Talks are talked and walks are walked Beneath your exuberance lies a bubbling Of insecurity I’m not mistaken For it is seen many times over The façade of the strong willed When broken down and torn apart The innards apparent For you are ill I call to you and you play me down Turn your head and shun me off Why? We are all made different so what is it That abides in me that makes you veer Away from me even in times of glee Your eyes have caused you to witness pain Deceit and lies in all the rain From that point on should one take that step You look down your nose Peer at them from head to toe Turn your head and off you go Never to be heard nor seen again All I wanted was to be a friend But because you pre-judged me The thing you needed you lost in me ‘Til maybe one day might be brought out A fisher of men amongst the drought ‘twasn’t meant for all to achieve But in the end we must all believe That the goodness shall shine through Can’t win them all but One at a time I will leave a mark Little at first, something small A seed is planted and it takes root But my sadness has shown My spirit is true Plagued and burdened every aching day Of something different Something magnificent Respect a privilege A privilege to respect But yet Everyone requires to be respected But none has paid that price, neglected That it is to attain that level But upon the precipice shall I finally find Rejuvenation During the death of a nation I tried to save them, I tried to love them I really wanted to see better of them But now I cry as I lament And sing my songs of sacrament Until one day, the breath of life is stripped from me My despair… can’t you see???