Call Me Lost

If to love is to live Then I'm lost If to live is to love Then I'm dead My heart channelled at birth Never to love Or so I believe. Never been lucky with love So I am jinxed Jinxed by what? When I am selfish with my heart How can I give my heart? When it keeps me alive How can I give my heart? when it pumps my blood Call me selfish but I'm in control of my feelings Call me heartless but I do get to keep my heart They say love engulfs your thoughts but I need my thoughts to keep me sane They bet on loneliness to kill me but it never really haunts me because I find solace inthe bottle Call me lost but I definitely don't want to be found