Constance Gilmore Poet Rhyme

Broke But Not Broken

I check my empty bank account
 And wonder how am I gonna make it.
 I look at those red numbers
 And think I can no longer take it.
 I have trouble breathing
 Because I am barely staying afloat.
 I wish someone would help me,
 Come save me with a lifeboat.
 The bills keep piling up,
 The collection calls never stop.
 How did I hit rock bottom
 When I was so close to the top?
 I look upon my child's face,
 My happy and charismatic baby girl...
 I broke my promise to her
 Because I can't give her the world.
 Christmas was my favorite holiday
 Now I dread December 25th.
 I can't afford what she deserves
 Because it's hard to buy even one gift.
 Birthdays are just as bad.
 I can't celebrate my child's big day.
 It's hard to disappoint my child
 Because I never imagined it being this way.
 I have to figure out which bill will be late
 How much gas I will need to get me by
 How much money I can use for food
 It's so frustrating, I just want to cry.
 That seems impossible
 Because I've already cried two rivers.
 Every time I try to swim upstream,
 Currents keep pushing me downriver.
 It breaks my heart to look at my child,
 Oblivious to all the negative
 And realize that my beautiful offspring
 Is my main reason to live.
 I laugh to keep from crying
 And so many people don't even know
 Just how bad my situation is;
 All they know is what I choose to show.
 I keep a smile on my face
 So people won't ask too many questions.
 I try so hard to stay positive
 Living in this detrimental recession.
 I've gotten to the point that I can't cry anymore
 And I sit still with that Novacane feeling.
 As I continue trying to hold out on faith,
 I find myself constantly kneeling,
 Praying to God asking for strength,
 Asking for some way over this hump,
 Believing He will fix my pain
 And help me overcome my financial slump.
 I looked around and wondered how some had it so easy,
 How I'm the one that has to struggle and others don't
 But then I realized, I don't know their story
 So I try not to compare mine to the unknown.
 I just have to keep my head up
 Do my best to stay strong for my family.
 I believe that God's got it
 And He knows just what's best for me.

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