Boi

I don’t want to be sober once more
I don’t want to be that boy that hurts to the core
In pain just for your gain
Lost my brain train
You spooked me out in silent reveries
Solace shakes my inner core and brings me to my knees
Coming down from the high…

Boy, you got me going crazy these insane days
Oh, you have ways to hypnotize me…
In a summer haze, I’m in agony in many ways
Oh, there’s days when I want to be free

Girl, I’m sorry I let you down
This boy in mind makes me drown
In my tears of terrible tribulation
For I’ve been force-fed frustration
But, I loved him for some odd reason
It’s outrageous how time flies
When we feel our lows and highs
I’m sobering up and it’s not easy being me
I’m hovering above the surface of ecstasy

Boy, oh boy, I wish you’d be not on my mind
I don’t want to be that boy that’s hopeless
In pain and I’m growing insane
Lost my brain train
You scared me out of my wits honestly
Chaos brews inside me now and sings me crooked lullabies gleefully
Coming up from the lows…

Boy, you got me going crazy these insane days
Oh, you have ways to hypnotize me…
In a summer haze, I’m in agony in many ways
Oh, there’s days when I want to be free

Girl, I’m sorry I let you down
This boy in mind makes me drown
In my tears of terrible tribulation
For I’ve been force-fed frustration
But, I loved him for some odd reason
It’s outrageous how time flies
When we feel our lows and highs
I’m sobering up and it’s not easy being me
I’m hovering above the surface of ecstasy

Fearless and unbearably trapped,
Longing to be free and unfraid of what lies ahead
Distress more or less got zapped
Away from my presence and I’m trading sadness with happiness instead

Boy, you got me going crazy these insane days
Oh, you have ways to hypnotize me…
In a summer haze, I’m in agony in many ways
Oh, there’s days when I want to be free

Girl, I’m sorry I let you down
This boy in mind makes me drown
In my tears of terrible tribulation
For I’ve been force-fed frustration
But, I loved him for some odd reason
It’s outrageous how time flies
When we feel our lows and highs
I’m sobering up and it’s not easy being me
I’m hovering above the surface of ecstasy

Girl, I’m sorry I let you down
This boy in mind makes me drown
In my tears of terrible tribulation
Girl, I wish I could be with you, but I can’t to my devastation
Self-sabotaged myself too much to be with you, babe
I can’t handle the shade and the blame and the shame
I came undone when I was going through my lows and highs
Copyright © | Year Posted 2023

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