Blue Hearts

1 man 
all by himself no one understands 
The government even determine when he can see his kid
Now he got a bunch of stuff running through his head
Streets getting wild 
Never knew he wasn’t my mans 
I was in denial 
But Before I give you up to oops 
I’ll cut off my hand 
Split decisions
I cried every second time moved another hand 
Praying the deputy don’t stop me
 cuz these tags are dead 

I had a few neutrals with me 
Im lost in a perfect world of sin
You don’t really love me or would like to see me win 
I wanted to commit suicide 
Did you see how I pretend 
To be happy 
I’m tired but I could never seem to bend 
At capacity 
they still let me and my girl in 
she snuck  in through the back with me 

I lost my mommy and a few of my best friends 
What’s life 
i just entered a movie 
Shrimp over rice 
cold nights 
I feel like I’m losing 
 
Battling depression since an adolescent  the only thing kept me moving 
was my smooth sense of humor 
and how the women with big influence 
Pick and choose me 

It’s not enough knowing my equations not adding up
my father alive we never hugged 
I just dap him up 

Traveling far in the woods to free the demons that’s attached to us 
Everything I harvested
around the tree of knowledge 
I crafted something 
I will never make it out the jungle because I actually love it 
This irrational function
I see dragons let em get a pass 
Just to watch the volcano erupt 

Without the money who famous as us 
People left me hungry they prolly thought I was on angel dust 
Child support will always haunt me 
I ran it up but did not flaunt it 
I cried so many nights in my closet 
I can’t even breathe without Tosha

I created a suicide letter trashed it 
Then I went to work 
Bragging about who car the fastest
 I crashed 3 whips in 2021 

My last whip caught on fire 
I sat in it till a civilian pulled me out 
I rather sit in flames thinking when I die they’ll love me now 

Peace I’m much better with peace 
Peace to my friends 
I feel less  better with Greeks 
I’m a god I’m much better than these 
Pions 
I remember I used to tell that to breeze 

No fraternity will ever love me more than the team 
I don’t even know who supporting my dreams 
I got my toes in the sand watching the flow of the stream
Copyright © | Year Posted 2022

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