Bitter Tears of a Wasted Life

I am very insecure Full of doubt and so unsure My life's going way off course Not knowing where it got lost Swallowed up by all the fears Leaving me to cry the tears Of a soul who's dreams were shattered Broken--never being captured Gone forever---slowly pacing Their departure and erasing My future plans and existence I can not take the resistance And being pushed further past My dreams that are fading fast In my memories and mind Is there a way to rewind Life back to the very spot Happiness once filled my heart Before years flashed by my eyes Giving me more lows than highs Dreams being put through the ringer Now they're memories that linger In the corners of my brain Leaving a sad hurtful stain That comes around when I see Others making history Living life the way they like Turning another sharp spike In my soul that turns and twists And my eyes once again mist With the bitter tears I taste Of a life that's gone to waste