Bitter Sweet Home

Today I pray to find a happy place Only I awake to find myself astray Alone no hope is where I always stay Benign my mind which drives me insane Envy the world for it seems better off Today I prAt i find where I belong The day will never come Eternal pain drains my soil Regret my martyr life Pray for me to find the strength to lift the world from my back Love me for what i was not of what you hear Alone I push to solitude for pain is my only friend Can you show me how to get the power to light my heart again Endlessly I remain in search to find my own home, for in my mind i feel blind, forever alone