Betrayal

Never tactless, never nagging, Always friendly, always smiling - That was my convenient tactics But right now I`m mad and frantic. I shall not burst into tears. I have lost my hope and fears. Your harsh words dulled all my senses. Why am I then sad and helpless? I am not a gentle lily. I can also be severe. But why do I have this feeling? How could I have been so silly To let you come into my heart, To let you become my good part, To become your doll and puppet? I should have run like a rabbit. Now I cannot see the old path. You need neither me nor my love. And another girl is your half. It is true but it is so tough. She is loving and she`s lovely. She will make your life so sunny. I do know it and I`m happy That you threw away your dummy. Yes, I`m jealous, yes, I`m dying. Hate myself for keeping smiling. And the most disgusting thing is That I cannot kill my feelings.