Belong

When I was young all I wanted was to belong. Why as life goes on I that's still What i'm going through? All I wanted was your love Something I know now I'll never recieve. What it is to be me? Life lessons worlds apart and the thought of you still tears at my heart. How is it I came from you? The question I ask myself every time. Look at the grandma across the room ... Holding her own womb with joy? As the babe grows the grandma never goes away. My life will never see that. As look at you I grew in you.. I help and I'm the one you turn away. I thought I forgave you yesterday? Never will I forget the pain and the constant need to belong. Not from the world but you mom. To feel your magic like a rainbow that fades with time .... Why , do you fade? Should I be happy for you as you disappear as fast as magician... Only, poking your head through when you see the need. You do that to your own seed. As I look at the mirror to see your face in mine. I turn away and a tear falls down my face. To deny you I would deny me. I'll never be what you want me to be. I'm me By Amber Gilmore