Because of Him
Why do I feel so alone?
Surrounded by many yet the feeling continues
I realize now I’m being tested by Him
But still the feeling can be unbearable
I love, live, laugh, and still feel immense pain
Who do I feel so unimportant?
I was made by Him and He loves me
But still I feel abandoned
I realize He’s testing my strength
How long I can go without real happiness
Why do I feel so distant?
As if no one really wants to get near me
Showing me something is really wrong
Telling me I need help
I realize He’s always with me day and night
Why do I feel so scared?
I feel like someone is after me
I’m being watched every moment
Curled up in a ball under my covers
Afraid to have an ounce of contact with the world
Why do I feel so confused?
Not knowing what I really want or what I’m looking for
Trying hard to be someone everyone accepts
I know He’s taking care of me all the time
But still I don’t know what’s happening
Why do I feel so sad?
With tears rolling down my eyes
Closed up in a room with no one to help
Something so sweet taken away forever
And not feeling loved or even spoken to
Why do I feel so mad?
So pissed off at the world for everything
Trying my best not to lose control of myself
Wishing I could easily fix my problems
But He knows if I do wrong so I don’t
Why do I feel so unloved?
One after another they left and didn’t look back
Leaving me with emptiness and despair
But He loves me and I know this
Because no matter the feelings I have
I am blessed
Copyright © Marybel Ortega | Year Posted 2009
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