Beating Resignation

Even in a place such as this Our thoughts, unwanted will come And feelings that I did not miss Will march in, a quickening drum It picks up my heartbeat, takes it along But slows my mind to a halt Looking around me, I still don't belong I'm a speck of pepper amidst pure salt Face burning eyes closing body tensing The lack of attention I'm sensing Giving me the edge I need to retreat Off into the cool January air Glasses off, hair down, release heat Release every worry, every care At home the bed feels amazing at last And tomorrow too close, too far I close my eyes, I know I fade fast looking up towards my favorite lil star "Goodnight" I whisper to the shadows on walls A silence that echoes in the grayened halls