Battler

I am losing the war against myself 
Who I am vs who I am supposed to be against what I am 
It exhausting when your opponent is a fighter 
Its exhausting fighting the mirror 
Cuts and bruises until you can’t see any clearer
Blood flowing no drinking on the river 
The pain runs deep and the alcohol is bitter
Its painful to numb what caused the Injure 
Reality is blurry the tears salty I can’t find my healer 
F*** this f*** that f*** I am bitter
The dissonance is cognitive a dissociative persona 
The legion is fighting my spirit is bipolar
The peace is not within without is not proper
I am losing a war against myself 
I am a coward with a loud speaker 
Defendant,  jury adjudicator corrupt  prosecutor 
I am kind to Nisa but to myself a monster 
I am kind to a stranger but to myself I’d not rather 
I am losing a war against myself
Love lover lovest can’t save me any farther
Low lower lowest got me questioning my creator
No power protest there really is no one out there
Da da da da future selfs on the respirators 
La la la la sad scenes  make up my theatre 
I am so tired I need to rest  so that the bugs do prosper 
If I just give up who cries at  Gods acre? 
I am losing a war 
I am losing a war 
I am losing a war  against myself

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