Battler

I am losing the war against myself Who I am vs who I am supposed to be against what I am It exhausting when your opponent is a fighter Its exhausting fighting the mirror Cuts and bruises until you can’t see any clearer Blood flowing no drinking on the river The pain runs deep and the alcohol is bitter Its painful to numb what caused the Injure Reality is blurry the tears salty I can’t find my healer F*** this f*** that f*** I am bitter The dissonance is cognitive a dissociative persona The legion is fighting my spirit is bipolar The peace is not within without is not proper I am losing a war against myself I am a coward with a loud speaker Defendant, jury adjudicator corrupt prosecutor I am kind to Nisa but to myself a monster I am kind to a stranger but to myself I’d not rather I am losing a war against myself Love lover lovest can’t save me any farther Low lower lowest got me questioning my creator No power protest there really is no one out there Da da da da future selfs on the respirators La la la la sad scenes make up my theatre I am so tired I need to rest so that the bugs do prosper If I just give up who cries at Gods acre? I am losing a war I am losing a war I am losing a war against myself