Awakening

Lost and inappropriate, my lips spoke trivialities, my hapless heart was inarticulate. Fearfully I fumbled through my hazy days, spoiling opportunities, urgently hoping they wouldn't pick me. A wraith within a wraith, I flittered by commitment like a man without a plan; I only knew the pleasures of denial, 'til I was pushed into the present by a crushing ultimatum, compelling me to find my way alone, now I greet each morning with a smile!