Awaiting Change

Here I await change. Anything would be something. Anything could be everything. Something left behind once was mine. Something I was sure I did not want, disgarded. Feelings of a heart that I'd long forsaken. Feelings that I love & those which I hated. Feeling like I'd do anything... Sacrifice myself- AGAIN & for what good & to what end? Sacrifice & risk it all... For a chance to walk in the light, again Warm with love, again - It is cold in the dark where I've so long belonged... but, strangely the prospect of "maybe" has drawn me out. Squiting & scared...I wonder blindly, hands poised & feeling out for something to grasp to, until I get my barings... until I find you.