Ashamed

6/3/20 "Ashamed" Whether or not there really was a 'Big Bang' Across a wide spectrum and range If there is other lifeforms, it's been difficult to ascertain To put it plain Dang I'm ashamed Money going down the drain By products involved with butane Or cellophane I was able to display some restrain And maintain Then I partook in from what I was trying to stray Thought I didn't, but once again lost my way Just was not my day What was financial gains Quickly had little to show or say Started feeling like, I was going insane Because of partaking in the same Cycle and chain Was being weak and not really using my brain To be honest, it is lame Not a game Struggles I thought I overcame Followed by torment and strain Only myself to blame Not really taking full control of the reigns In a beautiful world, where people can be strange Showing hatred and rage Involved in twisted games Across many different terrains Amid sunshine, snow, rain And the shade I was far too vain I know I've changed Near and far from ocean waves And caves with or without stones like jade Beginning to age Whether you're in or out of a cage As well as the picture frame Pitiful that people continue to aim To claim Lives for their god or in their own name I refuse to complain Despite all the heartache and pain I am humane I'm not afraid Just out to stake my claim Until the grave Everything experiences wear and tear Beginning to age During any phase or stage Towards you, my feelings remain It's all good, if you don't feel the same Still looking for my main Dang I'm ashamed