As I Sit and Ponder

AS I SIT AND PONDER AND QUESTION WHAT I SHALL WRITE THE PURITY I HEAR AS RAIN REPEATEDLY FALLS JUST LIKE THE TEARS I SHED SAYING TO MYSELF ANOTHER LONELY NIGHT SITTING ON A CHAIR IN THE CORNER AND HAVING ALL THESE THOUGHTS IN MY HEAD TRYING TO MEDITATE ABOUT ALL THE THINGS I JUST SAID AS I SIT AND PONDER I QUESTION MYSELF WHY THINGS ARE THE WAY THEY ARE TAKING ANOTHER SIP OF MY CARAMEL MUDSHAKE ONLY TO WISH IT WAS YOUR LIPS REMINISCING OF OUR HAPPIER DAYS NOT BLINKING AN INCH ONLY REMINISCING ABOUT YOUR TOUCH THAT WOULD LEAVE ME PARALIZED IN A TRANCE AS I SIT AND PONDER IT IS YOU IN MY THOUGHTS YOU'VE LEFT ME LIKE AN APPLE ON THE COUNTER ONLY TO ROTT THINKING HOW NICE IT WOULD BE TO SEE THAT SMILE AND HAVE THINGS THE WAY THEY USED TO BE PRAYING DOES'NT CUT IT NOR DO MY WORDS AS I SIT AND PONDER I FEEL SO INSECURE IT IS YOUR FAULT JUST ANOTHER JAULT AS I SIT AND PONDER REALIZATION HAS TAKEN THE MOMENT A FEELINF I'M NOT LIKING ONE BIT AT ALL