Anxiety, Abandonment and Despair

When Sartre suggested there was no God, Did he mean female or male God? What consequences were to be faced? We should not live in hope he said! We should always act rather than live in hope, If we act rather than live in hope of rescue, We are more likely to achieve our ambitions. So I act - but what do you do if your act is taken? Act again? And what if this act is taken? What if everything you do is claimed - after all, there is no God? Every time you act/do something, someone takes credit. If you stop acting/doing deeds that take you towards your goals, Will you still achieve those goals? After all, a wo/man is only as good as his/her last deed! If someone always takes credit for your last deed, then what does it mean? Footsteps in the sands of time...wiped clear...as you never existed! One might ask why do they take your last acts/deeds - for the credit? Are they taking your life - I.e. KGB? One day you'll be gone and all you have will be theirs, especially your life! After all, all your deeds are theirs now. All your acts are theirs now. All that was you is them now. You have been washed from the sands of time. You no longer exist. Not even in a prism floating in space. She is you now. Your champion never came ~