And This Is How You Feel

I have been wondering all these years, Is it a smile or a mocking jeer. Said you are special and will always be, Why don't u believe me, Oh dear! ! I have travelled a distance with pain and pleasures, held my love like a precious treasure. Your care was my mental chores, and you say i don't make u feel greater! ! I sighed and doodle or stare into space; found nobody else except your face. Poured my heart with your sterile words, and you think its all fake and grimace! ! How can i make u feel my love, cut my nerves or jump from above. Hope that my care will someday count, before my flame burns out..