And Then After This?

I amount to nothing now. Is my son proud? Well, I don't know. I don't know how? To get to you mijo, I had to fight through the crowd, of course, me always so loud, never made me proud. It was just to drown out how I really felt. Knowing all of me wants to shout, beyond yell out loud. So out loud. Looking now, wow, this is what life has become now? I had my doubts, but now? Wow, shocked, wow. Everything has been watered down to the point where you don't know what it is now. Anxiety being "his candy bowl," really who knows? But we know how far Lucifers rabbit hole really goes. Really not concerned, id rather learn, than burn right beside the worlds demise.