An Optimistic Hope

Lying to myself, I am determined and strong. I’ve got to think clearly, But I know I was wrong. When the pain subsides, It comes back in force. I’ve got to see the future, Let fate take its course. Hearing your voice, Is a bittersweet occurrence. A sadness grips at me, A tightly wound deterrence. I’m caught looking to both, A bright future and a misguided past. Torn between times, I don’t know how long this will last. Memories come flooding, Followed by imaginary thought. Some good and some bad, But will it all come for naught? Remaining optimistic, At least a portion of my day. Reverting to pessimistic, No matter what I can say. I’ve no reason to doubt, All the things she says true. An animosity’s touch, Keeping me from you. I’ll see you soon, How will it go? I love you to the moon, But this you already know. I hope to see you smile, I hope to see a sparkle in your eyes. I hope there’s an ignition, So our fire never dies. What’s left is some embers, With a hope of tomorrow. I hope I’m not too late, Able to cast away sorrow. I know all my misgiving, My past unfortunately true. Though I’ve got to keep living, Hopefully one day I’ll have you.