An Open Door

I used to have an open door, but I can't find it anymore. Someone closed it from inside, where all the painful, bad things hide. And I think I'm in here too, a child that knows not what to do. Scared and lonely , so afraid, peering through a darkened shade, Seeing my life pass me by, because I'm too afraid to try, to find someone who has the key, that unlocks the door and sets me free. Is it more than just a game, to feel something besides the shame? The child inside me wants to know, but somehow I just can't let it go. I used to have an open door, but I can't find it anymore.