Am I What You Looking For

As i sit down and think somethings are not always what they seem somethings have power if you know what i mean i look towards the sky, and wonder is my life just passing me by have i did all that others did, have i fulfilled my dreams, from when i was a kid what ive done with my life is it considered a distraction a distraction from the world, is it twisted up in a twirl although im just 24, am i the answer that this world is looking for Am i still what you expect less no i equalmore sometimes i feel like a packaged deal,waiting to be opened, or like a game winning all the tokens , Am i unspoken or have i said a word Am i still an image or can i be heard. i am not a dream deferred im what you consider real, i am the time in the clock, im the wound that can be heled it seems so sureal can you understand, i feel like the power in the hour or the help in your hand when i smile, i smile as if i have no worries at all i lighten up the place like im at an elegant ball when i cry, my emotions overflow, ive learned how to manage and how to let go i am the paint , thats painted over the wall i am the mural"Beautiful" its called I'm the lamp that stands alone im the child that wants to meet my ather on the throne I'm still full of lifes expectations , im made by the best of creations sometimes in life i feel like a cancellation, sometimes i feel void, but when my mind thinks of all these things i call on my "LORD" I'm getting so tired of segregation, what is happening to the nation People still looknme up and down as if im not supposed to be around Sometimes all i can do is stare and when i close my eyes seems like no one is there Is it fair or shall i say more am i what you're looking for