Agony

Lately it is only agony desperation nothing is the same anymore inside of me and different is not better and the weirdest of it all is that every day is the same thing but i dont recognize anything its like i can never see see, listen, feel. never its like a barrier between me and the world an transparent barrier because i see but i dont feel anything thats what seems to be inside of me the heart is beating im here missing that i do understand not only the people, but the smells the smells, colors, tastes. where are they? Why cant i see? see, listen, feel.