After Dinner

After dinner Taco night Nearly midnight Running up the stairs Oh God I had done so well The family ate And I ate Seven o’clock on a Tuesday Only two I only ate two No cheese No sour cream I had done wonderfully Eleven thirty on Tuesday Everyone in bed Everyone but me I approached the kitchen I ate it all No one saw how much was left They won’t notice it’s gone I put it all away They didn’t see it But I ate it all Running up the stairs They have their fans on They’re asleep They won’t hear me I find my familiar place Kneeling at my altar Forgiveness is always found here It’s time to confess my sins My fingers slip into a spot they know too well I struggle for a moment Nothing will come up Oh God No Don’t let it stay inside me Another moment Gagging Retching I feel it coming now Oh thank God It’s all gone Now I can sleep soundly I wash my hands and face Rinse my mouth I look in the mirror Why? Why is this happening? Oh my God Look at me This can’t be me This can’t be what I’ve become But what choice do I have?